Daddy God has been God for a long time and He knows exactly what He’s doing.
With this being said we don’t always know what He’s trying to do in and/or through us. There are many struggles that we face on a daily basis because we are not perfect, I definitely know I’m not.
He is Abba Father and we belong to Him even on the days that we do not feel like it.
One of the struggles that I feel like I have almost always struggled with and still continue to do at times but not as deeply is being good enough for others. I feel like I have always had the desire to be enough for others and please them but there is no legitimate reason why I should be living this way for others. The Lord alone is sufficient in my time of need and even more so in my time of need to feel sufficient.
The solution that I have found works for me with this is to be whole heartedly devoted to Him in my daily walk. When I devote myself to Him and His ways I feel His presence more in my life healing me from the brokenness that has been from this need to feel good enough.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. –Romans 12:2
The Lord tells us in a raw way to not conform to the world. A lot of the society we live in, in a lot of aspects is working to be good enough, to be simply sufficient. But – the Lord calls us to renew our minds in Him. When we do this we will be able to test and discern what Daddy God’s will is in our lives. His will is “good and acceptable and perfect.”
The Lord has great plans for us Lord but we can’t see it clearly when our minds are clouded with the things of this world, we must allow the Lord to transform us and renew us. When we devote ourselves to Him it is as if we are giving the Holy Spirit permission to move in us showcasing who He is. In doing this He delivers us, sometimes it takes a little longer than we would like but Daddy God comes through.
About three weeks ago I was really struggling with living life. Anxiety and a perhaps a little dose of depression had me feeling rather insecure and hopeless about the battles I was facing at the time. Medicine for anxiety didn’t really help me at this time- somehow it made me feel more hopeless at times. I think it was on Sunday, October 30th that I had an anxiety attack or came close it. (Y’all all I wanted to do that day was be in a ball and cry feeling sorry for myself.) I did not feel safe, I’m not exactly 100% sure why but I didn’t feel safe. It was probably the devil scaring me and instilling fear in me and it worked.
It didn’t work for the whole week though. Monday as well as the rest of the week up until Friday evening I felt rather mellow. At church on this weekend a couple of weeks ago we had a guest speaker coming to speak Friday evening, three times on Saturday, and at the normal service on Sunday. The Lord always shows up and He always shows off even more so when we come with expectation having an open heart for His will to be done in us.
This specific weekend I came with expectation for the Holy Spirit to move within me. Prior to this weekend I hadn’t really come with expectation to church or to my quiet time for Daddy God to move in quite some time. Previously my emotional and spiritual vision had been blurred by desiring to be enough. When I desired to be sufficient on a daily basis for other people (& even myself y’all) I was left filling empty and unfulfilled. I was lavished in brokenness instead of His love for me. There is simply no pretty way of putting it, prior to this weekend I was deliberately choosing to live in fear and anxiety instead of Daddy God.
I got so accustomed to expecting fear and anxiety to overcome me that I lost sight of the Overcomer. Coming with expectation for the Lord really opens us up for the Holy Spirit to really be renewed by Him.
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. –James 1:2-4
The struggle that I had with anxiety and depression had power over me and captivated my heart making it very hard for the Lord to transform me. These things have clouded my spirit time and time again. I always came with expectation for anxiety to win because its what I was uncomfortably comfortable in. When I continuously genuinely stopped to refocus on who He was in that circumstance and who He is still is today I began to really feel Daddy God’s hope in my life slowly take over. Refocusing on Him was a catalyst, especially for this situation, for me to begin coming with more expectation for what Daddy God has, is, and will do which led me to have more devotion to Him. Spending more time with Him continuously led to devotion and a growth spurt in my faith causing deliverance from my battles.
Our battles are to be counted all as joy because we know that these things test our faith which produce steadfastness in which when it comes to its full effect it makes us more like Daddy God being consumed by Him and His goodness. It positions us to really be used by Him for His glorification. He’s been God for a long time and He is more than sufficient. Since I have started being more devoted to Abba Father I have felt more life then ever. I honestly feel completely healed because of who He is. Everyday I wake up feeling renewed and refreshed in Him alone. I have so much joy in my heart that I laugh at times because of how amazing He is to us. He makes my life so frabjous.
When we allow Him to really transform our lives and renew our minds He is able to show us more of His will for our lives. In the midst of our battles He is present and He is more than willing to move in us and though us. Through our devotion to Him His deliverance comes within us to the depths of our hearts abounding with His goodness.
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. –Romans 8:28
I challenge you and I to really pursue Daddy God and be even more devoted to Him in which His healing will come forth in our lives in the depths of our heart. Let us be bold in our devotion to Him even if it is in small baby steps, it will always be more than worth it. His will is Good acceptable and perfect our lives. It will work out even better than we could have ever imagined.
Let us intentionally choose to be devoted to Him accepting His will and deliverance in our lives every day in every moment living withe expectation.